dream - plan - try - do !

it's a long day. I'm busy a couple days ago.
not raelly busy, but it just a little bit crowd.
until this time, it still same. and this head wanna blow up

I never know what I feel now, and I think it's like I try to find out what I wanna do, what I love to do, but it just like a story never ending. and I wanna make it have an ending story. I mean, wanna be more objective what I wanna do in this life, the unpredictable life.

first, I still try to draw something, make it just for something that I want, but no working so good. not yet actually.
then, I try to open my own business. but . . .  it's not mean not working good, but it's just not look like what I dream or planning in the first time. but this one, I still try it.
next, I think hard what I love, what I wanna do in my own life, and how it works, when it start or when it end.

SCIENCE
I love it, I really love it, I wanna have a new klan in my family. if it's not a business-man, they will be a teacher. always like that.
and I've done it.
I am the first (maybe) between of my Dad's family and my Mom's family, who practice this subject into a real job. I'm working within science in there. but it still not going work well

ART
who don't like this one??
even you say never like an art such as like that, or like those one, or another. trust me, you always find some arts in your life.
this one, it's like an "escapement" way to get out of stress in this tiny head.
I didn't say it not working, or not work well yet. it just, I never describe it well. it's an abstract feel
it is part of this soul

now..
I don't know what should I do now
sometimes I'm in the "try" post
but sometimes I feel it is still in "dream" post
I still figure it out. I am. always am.